i don't wanna be a lawyer no more

This shit is HARD!! And I'm a crappy writer now and have a Swiss-cheese brain.

And the more time I spend around lawyers and lawyers-in-training, the less I want to be around them.

So I was sitting in writing class, realizing how crappy my paper was (it was), and the supervisor who sits in front of me (whose bad attitude rivals my own) was talking about which classes they want me to teach at the test prep place.

Why again did I leave teaching? I already know how to do that pretty well. It's ingrained in me. This lawyer stuff - it's so foreign. And hard. And I'm wrong a lot. It sucks.

So now I'll brief some stupid Torts cases. I have the final draft of my crappy-ass paper due on Wednesday and the instructor and the TA's will not speak to us after Saturday noon. WTF?! I'm BUSY with classes and moving tomorrow and Friday and Saturday morning! When exactly am I supposed to write the entire memo and completely gut and revise the crappy discussion section that I didn't know how to do right the first time?

Today is the worst day, so I'm just tired - I started at 8:30 - 9:45 with Contracts. Then I typed up class notes in the computer lab until a meeting from 12-1:30 (with lunch - falafel, not as good as Pyramids) where I met a cool immigration lawyer who moved back down here to help her family (and I could hire her to help me with the Dayton situation - she's a real pro). Then I had
Criminal Law from 2:30-3:45, Civil Procedure from 4:00-4:50, Spanish from 5:00-5:50, Legal REsearch and Writing from 6:00-6:50, and then a Spanish dinner from the organization that I'm volunteer coordinator for so couldn't really bail, and I had to spend the whole time talking to some smarmy Venezuelan. Thursday and Friday aren't all that much better, so when exactly am I supposed to go see the instructor with questions? When am I supposed to work?

Oh, I guess right now.

So, the last day to get 50% of my money back would have been Monday. Here I am. Plunging forward because what the hell else am I going to do?

Even chocolate won't do it for me today.