notes to self

Ask landlady if somebody died unpleasantly here. There have been more and more feelings of ghost-like behavior recently. Yesterday, the key hook swinging for no reason, and knocking. Today, the newspapers were moved from where I put them. Just now, felt like somebody blowing towards my ear from behind me. Yeah. Creepy.

Leave CivPro prof alone, no more guilt about leaving us. He's leaving us for a girl, and I can't fault him there. He's finally marrying a woman he's been dating for years, and good for him.

WRITE MEMO!

Listen to good advice from Alejandra today - she's already finished law school. She said, even with the curve, you just have to compete against yourself - don't think of the other people. She's right of course. But it was a good reminder. And when I was chatting with the dean's wife, because she's my boss at one of my jobs, she said he told their oldest son who is in law school that if he goes to class and does the reading he'll be fine. That is SO what I'm hoping for!! As I prepare my outlines, I just look through all my prep notes and class notes, and it comes together pretty well. Will I remember all the things I need to? Probably not. Do I understand everything I need to? Maybe not. But to get an A in most classes is to only get 75% right anyway. I have advantages of being able to organize my thoughts well and quickly and get things down pretty coherently. I'm just trying to get some confidence here. Sigh. On that, a good thing happened - I was talking to a classmate that I drive to work with, and I said, "You know, I just don't have an ego anymore - I speak up because I feel bad for the profs when nobody will, and I don't care if I'm wrong anymore, because I often am." She said, "Yeah, I'm just so self-conscious, but I wish I would do that." And since that conversation, she's been speaking up every day in every class I have with her. Good for her!

Get to work! My days are just so long - I have NO down time. I'm always either in class, walking to class, driving to work, working, reading cases, briefing cases, working on my memo, or working on my outlines.

I need Senegal!