metabolism test

So, I took a metabolism test this morning, which is sitting with this device in your mouth with your nose clamped shut for 10 minutes. Not very comfortable.

It wasn't really that accurate of a test because it's supposed to be RESTING metabolic rate, and I had just practically ran there for 10 minutes and only rested a few minutes before doing it. So, my real RMR is probably significantly lower than the number I was given.

That said, my RMR according to this test was a good 300 calores LOWER than all those computer programs that give you a general idea of what your RMR is based on averages. I am NOT crazy - it IS difficult for me to lose weight. My RMR is more like somebody of my height who weighs less than 120 pounds - which, I really don't. This also means that I burn calories slower than other people when exercising.

So here's the real dilemma. If I ever were to be at my "target" weight, I would have to consume less than 1200 calories a day and exercise regularly to maintain that weight. Do I really want to spend the rest of my life picking at plain steamed vegetables and sugar-free, fat-free yogurt?

No. I don't want a life without chocolate bourbon pecan pie and king cakes. I'm not saying I want to eat those things every day (well, want to yes, but I don't) (I never have junkfood in my house - I always go out for it - which may be why I'm a social eater). But when I hear these tales of people who NEVER can eat bread or sweets again, I have to wonder about the quality of life. Never another enchilada? No rice? What kind of life is that? How would I ever feel not hungry?

So I got dealt a bad hand here - I have a real slow metabolism and a real high appetite. And now I have evidence of this. The question is more why I don't weigh 300 pounds than why I don't weigh 130 pounds.